Friday, December 22, 2006
Kezia's counts were good on Wednesday so she had the cyclophosphamide. However, they booked her in to have Thursday-Sunday cytarabine at the hospital. This is normally administered at home so I had to phone the hospital on Wednesday evening to find out why. Well, it seems it was an oversight and when they went on Thursday they gave her a prescription to have it at home over the weekend.
I expect I won't be blogging over the next two weeks - better things to do like enjoying my family! A happy Christmas and New Year to our readers!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Cyclophosphamide is what is called a pro-drug – that is it doesn't act directly itself but gets changed into something else and this something else does the work.
In the case of Cyclophosphamide it is changed into aldophosphamide in the liver. Most of this is then oxidised by the enzyme aldehyde dehydrogenase (ALDH) into the pretty useless carboxyphosphamide. However, a small amount is converted into the good phosphamaride mustard and the harmful acrolein.
Now phosphamaride mustard is pretty cool stuff! It's one of a group of substances called nitrogen mustards and the first nitrogen mustard, mustine, is on Schedule 1 of the Chemical Weapons Convention!
At the end of the first world war mustard gas was quite widely used by both sides. Although there were only isolated incidents of its use in the second world war, both sides had large stockpiles. In 1943 a U.S. stockpile in Italy was bombed exposing thousands of people. It was noticed that one of its effects was to lower the white blood count – and this led to research into its use as an anti-cancer agent.
My dad was a Gas Identification Officer in the second world war. He worked in a factory producing paint for military aircraft – a protected occupation meaning he didn't get conscripted. After air raids he would have to go out and check that the bombs dropped were not gas bombs. He also went the rounds giving talks to air raid protection people – I remember when I was a child him showing us his sample kit which he would get people to sniff so they would be able to recognise chemical warfare agents. Blimey – if he was found with that stuff today they'd arrest him as a terrorist!
A couple of chemistry diagrams to demonstrate the relationship between cyclophosphamide and mustard gas.
At the top is a cyclophosphamide molecule, below mustard gas. Those two chlorine arms on each side of the nitrogen and sulphur atoms are what make them similar.
And lastly in this little digression – its called mustard because its smell is vaguely similar to edible mustard, not because edible mustard is otherwise faintly related.
The Acrolein is the reason behind all the hydration before and after. It is toxic to the surface of the bladder and can cause hemorraghic cystitis!
Phosphamaride mustard doesn't have much effect in the bone marrow (or liver) as the cells here have high levels of ALDH. Where it does have effect is on leukaemic blood cells where, and they're not quite sure how, it gets to work on the DNA causing cell death.
Usual range of side-effects: nausea, hair-loss, low WBC etc etc as well as the bladder problems mentioned above.
Today, neutrophils and platelets permitting, is Kezia's cyclophosphamide day.
P.S. I have added some dosing information to the post concerning Methotrexate.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
As previously mentioned the gluco-corticoid, (a steroid), Dexamethasone has two roles in ALL treatment. The first of these, to combat the side-effect of nausea caused by the anthracyclines. I'll discuss now, and leave its other role until a later date (when I understand it!).
Nausea and vomiting (known as emesis) are controlled in part of the brain known as ... the Vomiting Centre (not often that medical jargon is this straightforward!). The anthracyclines stimulate the production of a chemical called Serotonin (or more correctly 5-HT) in the gut. This Serotonin then binds to and stimulates the vagus nerve which in turn stimulates the spinal cord and the chemo-receptors. There are many types of these receptors sensitive to different chemical compounds and seven of them are sensitive to Serotonin. The one that stimulates the Vomit Centre is known as 5-HT3.
So if we can successfully block, desensitise or turn off the 5-HT3 receptor, then we can stop the nausea – and this is what Dexamethasone (as an anti-emetic) does.
Unfortunately, it has its own side-effects such as increased appetite (Kezia put on weight!), sleeplessness and mood swings.
Kezia definitely suffered from mood swings. I sometimes think it is easier for an older person to rationalise these – I'm grumpy (or as Cass of Cancergiggles calls it – Irritable Bastard Syndrome) but it's due to the medication. Kezia cannot do this and does not understand why she is upset, which must be distressing in itself.
However, there's a downside to the ability for rationalisation that comes with age. Kezia does not understand ALL, cannot imagine her own mortality or the battles still to come. She lives from day to day, oblivious to such feelings – if one day she is down, the next will be happy, not remembering yesterday. For this, we must be grateful.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Daunorubicin: this is administered during the first Induction phase. It binds to the DNA and intercalates with it i.e. it inserts a molecule of itself in between the DNA molecules. This distorts the DNA, messing with the way it functions and preventing it from replicating.
In the picture above normal DNA is shown on the left and DNA intercalated at three locations (in red) is shown on the right.
Doxorubicin: this is given in the two Delayed Intensification phases (4 and 6). It binds to the DNA and inhibits the enzyme which unwinds the DNA double helix to be read for copying. It stops the enzyme from resealing the double helix thereby stopping replication.
Both drugs are administered by IV drip.
One of the side-effects of both these drugs is feeling sick (nausea) and vomiting. For this the gluco-corticoid (a steroid), Dexamethasone, is given. As well as combatting the side-effect of nausea, Dexamethasone is also used as a first-line treatment drug in later maintenance phases. For this reason, I'll leave its discussion until a later post (as I'm still trying to get my head around how it works!).
Another side-effect of the anthracyclines is hair-loss. In young adults, this can be a major psychological issue (Lucia discusses it in her blog – link on right). However, although it has happened to Kezia, she has not yet developed the self-consciousness for it to be a problem. I think Nanda and I have been more effected – Kezia's hair was so beautiful! However, it will grow back!
Friday, December 15, 2006
This is the fourth phase of treatment and lasts 8 weeks (if all goes well – although as I indicated yesterday, Kezia has had a delay of a week). The phase won't start until your child's neutrophil count (ANC) is >0.75 (x 109/L) and her platelet count is >75
The phase is divided into two parts: reinduction and then reconsolidation. In theory, there is a week's interval between the two but your child won't start the reconsolidation until the ANC and platelet counts are at the levels above.
The pattern of medication is very similar to that of the very first phase.
Let me talk a little bit about some of the medications.
Methotrexate (MTX): This can be administered intrathecally (IT - into the spine) or intravenously (IV - into the veins).
Every so often throughout the treatment your child will have a sample of spinal fluid taken (a lumber puncture). The fluid is analysed to check the leukaemia has not spread to the Central Nervous System (CNS). (If it does, with resultant risks to the brain, your child will be off-protocol and receive radiation therapy). Even when a child does not have CNS disease, methotrexate is administered as a prophylaxis. The lumber puncture and IT MTX are administered under general anaesthetic.
Methotrexate inhibits the production of folic acid which cells need to synthesize new DNA prior to splitting. Therefore the cell cannot split or replicate. It will therefore have a greater toxic effect on fast-splitting cells such as cancer cells but also hair and mouth cells.
During the third and fifth phases, Escalating Capizzi 1 and 2, the Methotrexate is administered into the veins (IV - intravenous). The dose is gradually increased by 50 mg/sq. m. throughout this stage from a starting point of 100 mg/sq. m. but is stopped at signs of toxicity – either low neutrophil counts (neutropenia), severe mucositis (sore/infected mouth) or liver/kidney dysfunction. In the case of a low neutrophil count, when it has recovered your child will restart at 80% of the last dose. In Escalating Capizzi 2 the starting dose is 50 mg/sq. m. below the final level attained in Escalating Capizzi 1 and then increased by 50 mg/sq. m. but again decrease the dose if toxicity occurs. In the case of mucositis the dosing alterations follow different rules.
In Kezia's case she only had two doses of IV methotrexate (week 15 and 19 - 100 mg/sq. m and 80 mg/sq. m) as her neutrophil counts were too low on the other occasions. I was initially concerned about this and consulted J. He reassured me that this was actually a good sign – the methotrexate was doing its job fine without the need for more and higher doses. She will start Escalating Capizzi 2 at 30 mg/sq. m.
I will continue with other drugs in forthcoming posts.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
As promised, I will now go off-topic. The subject for discussion is Open Source software.
First, I need to define this for you (bear with me if you already know what it is). From Wikipedia “Open source describes practices in production and development that promote access to the end product's source materials — typically, their source code”.
The concept of open-source can be applied to more than just computer software, for example it has also been applied to media other than computer programs, such as books, music and photos, e.g., by Creative Commons. It has also been applied in such fields as scientific and medical research (which I may try and blog on in the future).
For a more in depth analysis of the whole open source concept, I'll refer you to Wikipedia's entry.
However, amongst all the myriad advantages two major ones stand out. Firstly, it allows users/developers to build on previous developments to create new products to serve better or differently the community of end-users. Secondly, the end-product is free!
This blog is written on a machine running on an open-source and free operating system, Linux (version OpenSuse 10.1 for the techies). It's available as a commercially available system from Novell. How does Novell make any money from it, if it's also available for free? Basically by providing support contracts for large corporations who cannot afford to have any downtime. Novell also benefits from the hoards of non-Novell developers working on improving the product – they can then incorporate these improvements into their next commercial release. Additionally, if you have the free version, then there are lots of user and developer groups out there to help you.
Another big advantage is that because Linux is free, it is a lot less prone to viruses – the virus writers love to get at the mega-corporation making gi-normous fat profits that is Microsoft (henceforth MS).
I'm also using open-source software to write this blog – OpenOffice.org. And to post to Blogger I use an open-source browser Seamonkey.
There are other issues that make me a fan open-source software ...
In “Third” World countries, such as ours, price and reliability issues are expensive. A ministry, NGO or private user ...
- cannot afford legal copies of MS Office or MS Windows
- cannot afford support contracts
- cannot afford the dial-up Internet time to download latest and frequent security patches for MS products
- cannot afford the anti-virus software
- cannot afford the dial-up Internet time to download the updates to these products.
Many MS products are now requiring you to “authenticate” it over the Internet or by phone/fax – if you don't, it will stop working after a fixed period of time. All very well to stop piracy but ... expensive.
Why did piracy start? Because we cannot afford the original.
Many countries are now promoting the use of open-source software - Brazil, India etc. Certainly, it is a powerful tool in the push to promote Internet connectivity and hence access to information in poor (and not so poor) communities.
P.S. Just added a Creative Commons license to this blog. See the bottom of the page.
Kezia was meant to start the second (reconsolidation) part of Delayed Intensification 1 (the fourth phase) yesterday. This involves an intravenous dose of cyclophosphamide which itself is particularly nasty. To counteract potential side-effects, especially damage to the kidneys, the child has to have a dextrose/saline drip for 30 minutes beforehand and 3.5 hours afterwards, although the administration of the drug itself only takes 20-30 minutes. This makes a very long day.
However, her neutrophil count has not recovered to >0.75 (x 109/L) so the start of reconsolidation has been postponed a week.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Yesterday I wrote about a trial of the Augmented BFM phase of treatment which is the second stage of Regimen C.
Through NHS Blog Doctor I came across Christian and Colin Jago's blog auspiciousdragon.net (link on right). Christian has cancer and gives some very sound advice on dealing with it which deserves as wide an audience as possible. In this context I would like to quote some of it.
“The first thing you learn is that the medical profession does not know exactly how YOUR cancer will affect YOU. I happen to believe that conventional medicine represents by far the best approach to seeking treatment ... However, it's not magic. There are so many sorts of cancer and so many complicating factors. Research seems to go something like (1) here is a theoretical approach which might work (2) here is a drug or procedure which might be able to be used to exploit that theoretical approach (3) the clinical trials show that use of that drug or treatment apparently helped a statistically significant proportion of patients (or not). But even if it did, that's not to say, of course, that it will help you, or, more subtly, that if you get better or don't get worse whilst taking/undergoing whatever-it-is, that there is any necessary causative link ...Your consultant can talk in statistical terms but not, even with the best experience and training and diagnostic skills, be SURE that you belong to the statistical group he or she has in mind.”
So however optimistic the stats sound, it is wise to treat your own case cautiously and remember that you might be part of the 10% or 20% or whatever on which the treatment does not work. That being said trials are worthwhile participating in, otherwise there would never be any improvements in treatments.
Christian also has wise words about your relationship with your consultant ...
“For me, the upshot is that it’s OK to challenge your consultant’s view by doing your own research and asking questions. However, I wouldn’t go overboard on the challenge (as opposed to research) part in the first instance - your consultant has after all spent years training and (let’s hope) thinking. If you are unreasonable or shrill he or she will just end up marking you down as Awkward Patient and stop listening ... If you really have good reason to believe that your consultant is just plain down-right incompetent to deal with your problem (unlikely but possible) there are also now places where you can get second opinions on the web, although I have not tried any of them.
Accepting or declining treatment is a slightly different issue because it’s based on your own priorities and view of quality of life and so on, not just medical issues. Any consultant who gets angry with you for politely questioning his or her proposed treatment regime deserves a kick up the arse and a complaint to the hospital or the BMA.
If you do want to delve into the detail, it’s a good idea to take someone with you to your consultant’s appointments. Apart from providing emotional support, they can keep track of the questions and answers with you so you don’t forget or miss things. Tell them in advance you want them to help in this way, preferably.
An important corollary is that it’s also OK to leave it to your consultant. I’ve found that highly intelligent analytical people, imagining themselves in the position of a newly-diagnosed cancer patient, tend to assume that they would feel comforted by doing a lot of research themselves - by analogy with being put in some other life-changing frightening position, like say being accused of a crime of which you believe you are innocent. However, the difference is that you are ill. You might feel too ill to summon up the energy for your normal fact-finding, initiative-taking, driven approach. You might feel that the likelihood of finding a magic answer is small enough not to warrant the time taken away from other activities, if you think you don’t have much time.This is a perfectly rational approach and don’t let the “have you seen the article in the Sunday papers about” brigade deflect you from it. You have a right but no duty to second-guess your consultant.
The other corollary of the medical profession’s limited understanding of cancer is that you need to try to get used to living with uncertainty. The more you can do this, the more at peace you can feel.”
I think this is pretty sound advice – we have been very lucky with our consultant J. who I think would pretty much agree with Christian's opinions.
Taking someone with you to appointments is also a sound idea. Equally, it's a good idea to make a written note of anything you want to ask (so you don't forget) and make notes of any seemingly important information in his or her answers. These may lead onto further questions at a later appointment after you have had time to reflect on them. J. has been excellent responding to my emails.
I totally agree with Christian as well about research – but from a carer's point of view. Nanda being on-hand deals with the day-to-day practicalities and anxieties of Kezia's treatment, and taking care of the normal duties of bringing up two children.
Furthermore, she is currently hindered by linguistic, educational and cultural factors – linguistic because she doesn't speak English (and beyond survival it's not on her list of priorities right now, but hopefully this will change over time and, thankfully, the NHS provides interpreters), educational because she only completed eight years of education (we do live in the “Third” World) and culturally because the medical culture here dictates that you kowtow/touch-your-forelock to the medical profession and don't ask questions.
Me, on the other hand, have little more to do than earn the money to support us all, write this blog and do the research! I don't have the limitations that Nanda has – or, perhaps I should say to the same extent or in the same way. I am dealing with new terminology both scientific and jargonistic, I was hopeless at science at school and, when I was a kid, the family GP was definitely a “Dr.” So when Nanda has queries, she does sometimes get me to ask J., but her queries tend to be of a practical nature (the Hickman Line, a perceived side-effect) whilst I ask him “esoteric” shit about MRD, BFM etc. Given our situation, it's probably an ok division of labour.
A long entry – hope it's not been too boring! Please visit Christian and Colin's website (linked to on right) – it's far more than cancer – cookery, natural history and more. I've also put up a link to Cass' Cancergiggles which is also very inspirational!
As Andy inspired me to say when I started this, I should go off-topic!
Monday, December 11, 2006
At the end of the first induction phase of treatment, Kezia's hair finally began to fall out. She'd resisted so long! Such a shame – her hair was so beautiful, a crazy, wild mix of black mum, white dad. Losing your hair is a predictable side-effect of the chemotherapy. When chemotherapy stops, the hair will grow back – let's hope it grows back as wild and crazy!
She now started the second phase of treatment of Regimen C - what is called “Augmented BFM Consolidation”. First off, the rest of her hair fell out!
Augmented BFM Consolidation contrasts with the standard BFM Consolidation which is used in Regimen B (but not in Regimen A).
Two big differences – standard BFM doesn't use the drug Vincristine which is administered four times in the Augmented BFM or the Asparaginase administered twice. Secondly, there is a 2-3 week interval of administration of major chemotherapy drugs (Mecapturine – 6-MP, and Cytosine arabinoside – Ara-C) in the middle of the Augmented BFM phase.
Recently found an interesting paper in the Journal of Clinical Oncology comparing standard BFM and Augmented BFM treatments for Slow Early Responders (SERs). One of the results was that 90.7% of SERs with T-cell ALL had a 4 year Event Free Survival (EFS i.e. no relapse) rate.
This obviously gives rise to cautious optimism. However, the end of our nightmare is so far down the line from here that I rarely think of a life without leukaemia – in fact, we will probably always live with it even with a four year EFS, what about a 10 year EFS?
During the entire treatment, regardless of regime, your child will receive an antibiotic, called Co-trimoxacole, at home on Saturdays and Sundays. As your child's white blood count is low and s/he has little protection against infection, this is thus a precautionary protection. It's euphemistically known as the “weekend medicine”.
Friday, December 8, 2006
The next four months are still painful to talk about. And I'm not sure how to talk about it ...
I came back here and Nanda had yet to receive a 2 year extension to her 6 month visa. I couldn't apply for a 2 year visa for Jaime until she had the extension – I've explained all this in the previous post on Immigration.
Nanda's extension came through about the end of July and I immediately applied for Jaime's visa. But it took time ...
In the mean time, Nanda beat up on me constantly – as M. said she would!
The first crisis had happened before I came back – H. had been carrying Jaime on his bicycle and Jaime had caught his flip-flop in the back wheel and over they came! Jaime needed two stitches to his forehead (the very small scar is there 'til today and, yes, I know, carrying a second person like this is dangerous but I live here in Africa ... three/four people on a motorcycle is common!). Nanda and I only learned about this after I came back ... and she didn't learn through me!
The second crisis was that first photo I took of Jaime which I related earlier.
At first Nanda wanted Jaime to spend the weekends at his uncle's (her brother A.). After three weekends he didn't want to. He played lots with our neighbours' kids and considered them his community. There aren't many neighbours' kids around where A. lives, so he was obliged to play all day with his two years younger cousin. I also didn't want him to – especially when I gathered his natural father (several previous and current partners with numerous children – fortunately, his name is not on the birth certificate) had visited him there. As he's never shown any real interest in Jaime, both Nanda and I feel he should keep away. And I didn't want him to know anything at all about our future plans – to turn up at the airport on the day of departure and make problems!
The next event was Jaime's birthday on the 30th July – 7 years old! We had a small party with a cake, food etc. Sang “Happy Birthday” and blew the candles out.
Photos were, of course, sent to Nanda and Kezia, and this time I got no complaints!
In the meantime Jaime moved into my bedroom, started school again and we settled into a steady rhythm. We'd get up, get washed, H. would arrive and prepare his breakfast, I would go to work, Jaime would have lunch and then go to school, I'd return from work, H. would go home, I would prepare Jaime's bath, he'd come home at 17:20, take his bath, eat dinner whilst I had a shower, watch children's TV until 19:00 and then it was bed and my TV.
I would phone Nanda or she would phone me ... and she'd harangue me constantly “where's Jaime, how's Jaime, when's Jaime coming ...?”. I couldn't run any faster than the seemingly slow bureaucracy of the IND. I would ask about Kezia and receive the response “where's Jaime, how's Jaime, when's Jaime coming ...?”.
I know it was hell for Nanda – she was having to cope with a strange country, a language she didn't speak, the hospital etc etc.
To be continued.
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
I'll now try and explain the differences between the three regimens (A, B and C). They are basically the same length of time – 2 years for girls and 3 years for boys (yup, being a girl gives you an advantage!).
Weeks 1-5 Induction
Weeks 6-8 Consolidation/Central Nervous System Stage II (stage I was part of the Induction)
Weeks 9-16 Interim Maintenance no.1.
Weeks 17-23 Delayed Intensification no.1
Weeks 24-31 Interim Maintenance no.2
Weeks 32-38 Delayed Intensification no.2
Weeks 39-50 Maintenance Cycle no.1
Weeks 51 ...
These maintenance cycles then just repeat themselves until the end of the treatment - 112 weeks for girls and 164 weeks for boys.
Weeks 1-5 Induction
Weeks 6-10 Standard BFM Consolidation – (BFM stands for Berlin-Frankfurt-Munster - cities in Germany where they worked this stage out),
Weeks 11-18 Interim Maintenance no. 1
Weeks 19-25 Delayed Intensification no. 1
Weeks 26-33 Interim Maintenance no. 2
Weeks 34-40 Delayed Intensification no. 2
Weeks 41-52 Maintenance Cycle no.1
Weeks 53 ...
These maintenance cycles then just repeat themselves until the end of the treatment - 114 weeks for girls and 166 weeks for boys.
Weeks 1-5 Induction
Weeks 6-14 Augmented BFM Consolidation – (BFM stands for Berlin-Frankfurt-Munster - cities in Germany where they worked this stage out)
Weeks 15-22 Escalating Capizzi no.1
Weeks 23-30 Delayed Intensification no.1
Weeks 31–38 Escalating Cappizzi no.2
Weeks 39-46 Delayed Intensification no.2
Weeks 47-58 Maintenance Cycle no.1
Weeks 58 ...
These maintenance cycles then just repeat themselves until the end of the treatment - 118 weeks for girls and 170 weeks for boys.
There may be delays due to, for example, an infection (somehing that will almost certainly happen as your child's white blood count is very low) or the levels of neutrophils are too low to start a certain medication and you have to wait unil they have recovered to a certain level.
I wanted to do a pretty graphic or spreadsheet to show all this but my blogger skills are not up to it yet
From here on in, I think I'll only specifically be discussing Regimen C – as I'm not in a position to specifically discuss the ins/outs of the other regimens as they pertain to your child. Regimen CKezia, as I've said, is on Regimen C.
I will talk more about treatment, protocol etc but in the next post I'll try and focus on the story and post a photo or two!
What I will say is that the doctors will take your child off regimen/protocol if there is any doubt that it's not working, if any test reports are not as expected, if your child shows any bad reactions to medication. They will then “hack” it – to the best of their considerable knowledge.
Although many children are showing regular or standard patterns of ALL and responding to the standard treatments outlined above (and, thank your deity, until now, Kezia is), some will not, and as we know so little about such cases, the doctors have to respond to each new development as best they can.
H. is a case in point, and my colleague M.'s wife as well (although we're not talking ALL in her case).
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
I talked briefly about the objectives of the UKALL 2003 trial in an earlier post but will go a bit deeper into it here.
Initial allocation to a treatment regimen is based on the patient's age, initial white blood count and response to treatment at Days 8 and 15.
Minimum Residual Disease is a very fine genetic measurement tool to quantify remaining leukaemic cells in the bone marrow and is much more accurate than the traditional methods of counting leukaemic cells under a microscope.
The aim of this part of the trial is to see whether the intensity of treatment can be reduced for children with varying levels of MRD without effecting their chances of suffering a later relapse (or Event Free Survival – EFS - as it is known). The advantages of this is that many of the drugs used to treat leukaemia are highly toxic leading to a range of less and more serious side-effects. If fewer drugs can be administered, will this effect the outcome of the treatment?
At the end of the first block of treatment a measurement of Minimum Residual Disease (MRD) is taken. Children (whose WBC is satisfactory, fulfill age criteria, have had no complications etc) will be assigned randomly to Regimens A or B if their MRD count is considered low, or Regimens B or C if their MRD count is high.
There are really no advantages nor disadvantages to participating in the trial – its swings and roundabouts.
In Kezia's case her white blood counts were still too high to participate in this part of the trial – she was automatically assigned to Regimen C.
Another part of the trial is to evaluate a new form of the chemotherapy drug Asparaginase. Previously, it was necessary to have more frequent injections of Asparaginase. By pegalating the drug, it is released far more slowly into the bloodstream thus necessitating fewer injections. Pegalating a drug involves adding a molecule of polyethelene glycol to it. The study is basically looking at how pegalated asparaginase behaves – its release rates, how long it survives in the blood. It goes under the trade-name Oncaspar which you will also hear being used.
The final component of the trial is to assess Quality of Life aspects of leukaemia and leukaemia treatment for both the child and its parents. This is done through administering a short questionnaire at five time points during the treatment.
Monday, December 4, 2006
So I arrive back at 2 am after a gruelling trip.
Nanda super-filled the suitcase with presents for back home. There are lots of steps with no escalators or lifts (from London Euston underground to London Kings X underground. Then there are even more stairs from London Paddington underground to Paddington mainline railway station). I suffered from muscle-strain pain for weeks!
I got to Lisbon at around 20:30, the onward flight due at 23:50. ... and waited and waited and waited ...
They took us to the plane and from the plane – twice! Eventually, at 3.00 am, they taxied us to a hotel downtown Lisbon. TAP (Portuguese Airlines) is euphemistically known as “Take Another Plane” - but we can't!
Finally, at around 17:00 on the Sunday we departed, arriving here in the early hours. As I was so fed up with all this, no longer had any patience to deal with this and as I know the immigration people, I just handed in my passport into them, and I'll pick it up later in the week.
Nanda's brother was there to meet me and took me home to see H., his wife K., their daughter J. and, of course, Jaime. H., who works for us has been living here for the last few weeks with his family looking after the house and Jaime.
First big mistake – I take a photo of Jaime – he's dirty, having come back from playing with neighbours' kids but happy. I forward this to Nanda, thinking she'd like to see Jaime fit and healthy - but she goes ballistic!
Off to work on Monday and meet a new colleague M. M.'s wife is from the Philippines and is on a second round of cancer treatment. I don't know the medical details but she's on relapse right now and it has spread from one organ to another.(This week it's confirmed it's gone to her bone). Prognosis is not good.
We get on well – lots of talk about cancer, lots of talk about emotional things – he tells me that Nanda will beat up on me for at least a year.
Both of us far away from our loved and sick ones, we continue to exchange progress reports, blood and biopsy reports etc etc.
He's applied for a job with another branch of our employer (giving more money, of course) and if he gets it and moves away from here, I'll really miss him. So I don't want him to get it!
Friday, December 1, 2006
London has a small community and there are a few scattered elsewhere around the country.
The town in which we live in the UK has a population of 205,000 and a small African community – enough to establish a small NGO that runs a community centre with a food shop next door. My brother had been trying to get in touch with them but with little success. So when I took Jaime over in November, I dragged Nanda and Kezia off to see what they did.
We were met at the reception by a Gabonese man who explained a little of their activities. He then said oh and the woman working in the shop next door speaks the same language as Nanda, I think she's from ..., I'll call her over. Turns out that she's right from our own country! An amazing coincidence!
So the next 2 hours are spent talking and talking and talking ...
A real morale booster for Nanda - I hope she has stayed in touch.
Someone who has been incredibly supportive to us, although somewhat at a distance, has been Nanda's cousin SL.
I met SL here many many years ago – early '90s I think – when she'd just started at the BBC and was accompanying another (Anglo) BBC journalist here to cover something or other.
We became firm friends over time, especially as she was/is a great friend of my ex-partner.
When I met Nanda, they didn't even know (of) each other. Only after talking to Nanda's father, did I discover that he was SL's father's nephew (so strictly speaking SL and Nanda's father are first cousins). Everyone here seems to be related somehow or other!
SL continues to work for the BBC, has gained a B.A., M.A. and UK nationality.
She hopes to come back here and is building a house here ... but I fear will never find gainful employment here. She has absorbed the journalistic standards of the BBC. She came back briefly in the late '90s and started an interview program on national TV asking hard-hitting questions of our politicians – and they didn't like it. The politicos/ruling-class put the pressure on, the program was axed and she returned to London.
Although we have a multi-party democracy since 1992 (semi-functioning but very successful in African terms – another post), and officially censorship is not permitted, journalistic self-censorship is common. SL would not accept this.
She's also a published poet – though I don't think anything has been translated into English yet.
SL lives in London – about 350 miles from us. But she has visited and phones regularly. She has seen us through some emotional crises, talking to and calming down Nanda when I couldn't.
Thank you SL – you supported me before Nanda and you support us now.