Monday, December 27, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Our new government is to do away with Primary Care Trusts and Strategic Health Authorities. "Government to press ahead with radical NHS reform plans". More bureaucratic upset and confusion in the NHS. Haven't we had enough of "radical NHS reform plans"?
And who is going to replace the PCTs and the SHAs?
Of course, it's obvious ... the GPs!
Monday, December 20, 2010
The art of the disposessed?
Don Van Vliet, known under his musical pseudonym as "Captain Beefheart", has been a hero of mine, (along with Frank Zappa - a close friend and collabarator), since the tender age of 14 years. Just as Punk was emerging, with the Damned, the Sex Pistols, the Buzzcocks, the Clash, Siousie and the Banshees etc, my school colleagues were into Emerson, Lake and Palmer, Genesis, Yes, Jethro Tull etc etc. In 1976-77 only a very few of us turned on to punk. But even then I couldn't turn them on to Captain Beefheart and Frank Zappa.
The few obituaries I have seen (Rolling Stone, Guardian) emphasise his music and not his visual art.
His drawings and paintings, many done after his "retirement" from music, are as significant as the music. And the words to the music are poetry.
I was fortunate to see him perform at Wakefield Town Hall (of all places!) on his last UK tour in the early '80s (around the time of the "Doc at the Radar Station" album). I am fortunate to have three original paintings.
I am listening to Trout Mask Replica now. My children, my neighbours' children dance to Bat Chain Puller ... and I look at the paintings on my wall.
What should I quote?
The poet Ian McKellen recently chose "Moonlight in Vermont" on the BBC's eternal Desert Island Disks.
Obviously I cannot choose an instrumental ... I could give you Ant Man Bee, Ella Guru, Bat Chain Puller but I'll give you two less famous ditties ...
I walk, I talk
but nobody cares
I walk, I talk
but nobody hears
I walk, I talk
but nobody's there
And if they are
they give me
the parachoke stare
I don't know where
Everywhere I go I get
the parachoke stare
Apes Ma, Apes Ma
Your cage's too dirty Apes Ma
Remember when you were young Apes Ma
You used to break out of your cage
You know you're not strong enough to do that anymore
And Apes Ma
The little girl that named you years ago has died now
And you're older Apes Ma
Remember when your name was in the paper Apes Ma
Apes Ma, Apes Ma
You're eating too much
You're going to the bathroom too much, Apes Ma
And Apes Ma
Your cage isn't getting any bigger, Apes Ma
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
However, I have been pointed (thanks Andy - didn't realise until today you had commented way back when!) to this report on the Beeb about research just published in The Lancet regarding the highly successful use of Mitoxantrone in the treatment of relapsed childhood Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia. So successful in fact that the trial abandoned use of the traditional medication, Idarubicin - "Randomisation was stopped in December, 2007 because of differences in progression-free and overall survival between the two groups".
And seemingly the drug is cheap as well!
Why was I looking for fresh tuna? Because I had come across this simple but fascinating recipe from
“This dish is best made with tunny, but other fish with a relatively high fat content, for example Spanish mackerel, may be used. One effect of the tea is to balance the fat. The tea itself may be ordinary black tea if lotus tea (that is to say, tea containing the little white glands from lotus flowers) is not available.
1 small onion, sliced
1 ½ soupspoonfuls nuoc nam (fish sauce)
½ teaspoonful black pepper
1 ½ soupspoonfuls sugar
Heat the oil and cook the tunny steaks in it until they are beginning to turn brown. Reserve them. Meanwhile make a pot of quite strong tea.
Put the fish and pork in a roomy casserole, pour the tea over them, add all the other ingredients and let the whole mixture simmer over a low flame for 40 minutes (or longer if the steaks are very thick).”
I used one tuna steak of perhaps 1 ½ cm thick and black tea – other ingredients as above. The Nuoc Nam is I think essential. If you’ve gone to the expense of buying good tuna, buy good rice to accompany.
Morais asked me for the recipe today so here it is!
Good luck and Bon Appetit!
“I would sooner have fifty unnatural vices than one unnatural virtue. It is unnatural virtue that makes the world, for those who suffer, such a premature hell.”
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
The Swiss Internet company Switch is also resisting pressure ...
From the Guardian:
"WikiLeaks site's Swiss registrar dismisses pressure to take it offline
Swiss registrar Switch says there is 'no reason' why WikiLeaks should be forced off internet, despite French and US demands
WikiLeaks received a boost tonight when Switzerland rejected growing international calls to force the site off the internet.
The whistleblowers site, which has been publishing leaked US embassy cables, was forced to switch domain names to WikiLeaks.ch yesterday after the US host of its main website, WikiLeaks.org, pulled the plug following mounting political pressure.
The site's new Swiss registrar, Switch, today said there was "no reason" why it should be forced offline, despite demands from France and the US. Switch is a non-profit registrar set up by the Swiss government for all 1.5 million Swiss .ch domain names.
The reassurances come just hours after eBay-owned PayPal, the primary donation channel to WikiLeaks, terminated its links with the site, citing "illegal activity". France yesterday added to US calls for all companies and organisations to terminate their relationship with WikiLeaks following the release of 250,000 secret US diplomatic cables.
The Swiss Pirate Party, which registered the WikiLeaks.ch domain name earlier this year on behalf of the site, said Switch had reassured the party that it would not block the site.
An email sent by Denis Simonet, president of the Swiss Pirate Party, to international members of the liberal political group said: "Some minutes ago I got good news: Switch, the registrar for .ch domains, told us that there is no reason to block wikileaks.ch."
Laurence Kaye, leader of the UK-based Pirate Party, tonight told the Guardian: "International Pirate Parties now have an integral role in allowing access to WikiLeaks. I wish some of our other politicians had the same guts.
"We support the WikiLeaks project as access to information is the prerequisite for an informed and engaged democracy."
Meanwhile hackers (Operation Payback) brought down the website of PostFinance on Monday night and are threatening to the same to PayPal - what about Mastercard? However, as I write the PostFinance website is back up.
In other news it seems that Julian Assange is going to turn himself in today, will appear in court and apply for bail.
Monday, December 6, 2010
The list of Wikileak mirrors is here. And how to set up a Wikileaks mirror is here.
From the Guardian we have an explanation of the Wikileak IP trail.
Would like to know how the Paypal donation block is going to be got around.
"The Obama administration is forbidding government employees to call up the wikileaks documents on government computers, including those at the Library of Congress and on military bases. That policy is just plain stupid, and unworthy of Obama’s renowned intellect. I don’t want my intelligence analysts not knowing about the fall-out from the wikileaks cables!"
I confirmed this with a US government source in the International Broadcasting Bureau (the USG's media bureau - Voice of America, Radio Marti etc etc) this morning:
"I believe there is an Executive Order prohibiting any unauthorized USG computer from accessing Wikileaks. That would cover VOA reporters too."
Shooting yourself in the foot?
Friday, December 3, 2010
Only two real breaking stories but some interesting commentary and background.
The breaking stories are that the latest release of US State Dept. cables includes one requesting an inventory of strategic points of interest to the US in each country where it is represented.
In this story the lawyers of Wikileaks founder Julian Assange claim they are being hassled by the security services.
Some interesting background and commentary:
First up is Swedish ISP Bahnhof's role in keeping Wikileaks online (from CNN! and pointed out to me by friends at Bahnhof who are also the technical contact for the São Tomé e Príncipe domain).
Then we have Marc Ambinder in the US National Journal questioning the IT systems that allowed how US military private Bradley Manning had access (in Iraq at the time) to so much classified material.
You can no longer donate to Wikileaks using Paypal.
Finally, extremely well-argued commentary from Juan Cole (which I don't entirely agree with) on Informed Comment.
Ironically, and to quote from the BBC,
"One web expert explained that Wikileaks had managed to re-establish web access via a different address,
"Users visiting the www.wikileaks.ch website appear to be directed via a Swedish website on to a server in France which is now hosting their main website," explained Sebastien Lahtinen, director of web hosting firm NetConnex.
In a surprising twist, the .ch address is also hosted by EveryDNS.
"It seems a strange choice given that they pulled the plug on the .org address just a few hours ago," said Paul Mutton, a security analyst at internet services firm Netcraft. "It could be that Wikileaks is quite happy to play a cat and mouse game with them," he added."
So here is the EveryDNS press release on its suspension of Wikileaks ...
"All systems are functioning normally.
EveryDNS.net provided domain name system (DNS) services to the wikileaks.org domain name until 10PM EST, December 2, 2010, when such services were terminated. As with other users of the EveryDNS.net network, this service was provided for free. The termination of services was effected pursuant to, and in accordance with, the EveryDNS.net Acceptable Use Policy.See more.
More specifically, the services were terminated for violation of the provision which states that "Member shall not interfere with another Member's use and enjoyment of the Service or another entity's use and enjoyment of similar services." The interference at issues arises from the fact that wikileaks.org has become the target of multiple distributed denial of service (DDOS) attacks. These attacks have, and future attacks would, threaten the stability of the EveryDNS.net infrastructure, which enables access to almost 500,000 other websites.
Thus, last night, at approximately 10PM EST, December 1, 2010 a 24 hour termination notification email was sent to the email address associated with the wikileaks.org account. In addition to this email, notices were sent to Wikileaks via Twitter and the chat function available through the wikileaks.org website. Any downtime of the wikileaks.org website has resulted from its failure to use another hosted DNS service provider."
I am in formed that everydns has stopped providing DNS services for them early Friday morning due to Denial-of-Service attacks and hence Wikileaks is offline.
I also noted this morning that the UK Guardian newspaper's Wikileaks blog was offline but seems to be back up now ...
I am assured that they will switch dns-provider.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
From what I understand first the Siemens PLC needs to be infected via Siemens proprietary Step 7 Windows-based software. Then the PLC needs to connect to "Command and Control" servers via an Internet link. Only then can a programmer change the code in the PLC. Symantec has monitored infections through connections to these Command and Control servers.
The apparent sudden cessation of Iranian infections in August is probably due, according to Symantec, to the Iranians shutting down Internet connections between PLCs and the C & C servers, rather than a real end to infections.
What I haven't fathomed yet is why/how come Iran bought so heavily into Siemens PLC and Step 7 technology and why other countries with the same Siemens PLCs have not been so affected ... is Siemens marketshare so much smaller? ... surely other countries are just as prone to IT security lapses as Iran? ... was Siemens part of the story? ... is there something in Symantec's technical discussion missing e.g. deliberate geographical targetting?
More as I read more ...
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
As we said yesterday, Iran claims this is CIA disinformation:
See paragraphs 10 and 11:
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WHITE HOUSE FOR OVP, DEPARTMENT FOR NEA/ARP AND S/I
E.O. 12958: DECL: 04/19/2018
TAGS: EAID ECON EFIN IZ PGOV PREL MOPS SA IR
SUBJECT: SAUDI KING ABDULLAH AND SENIOR PRINCES ON SAUDI
POLICY TOWARD IRAQ
Classified By: CDA Michael Gfoeller, Reasons 1.4 (b,d)
¶1. (S) Summary: US Ambassador to Iraq Ryan Crocker and
General David Petraeus met with Saudi King Abdullah bin Abd
al-Aziz, Foreign Minister Prince Saud al-Faisal, General
Presidency of Intelligence Chief Prince Muqrin bin Abd
al-Aziz, and Interior Minister Nayif bin Abd al-Aziz during
their April 14-15 visit to Riyadh. The Saudi King and senior
Princes reviewed Saudi policy toward Iraq in detail, all
making essentially the same points. They said that the
Kingdom will not send an ambassador to Baghdad or open an
embassy until the King and senior Saudi officials are
satisfied that the security situation has improved and the
Iraqi government has implemented policies that benefit all
Iraqis, reinforce Iraq's Arab identity, and resist Iranian
influence. The Saudis evinced somewhat greater flexibility
regarding the issues of economic and humanitarian assistance
for Iraq and debt forgiveness. In a conversation with the
Charge' on April 17, Saudi Ambassador to the US Adel
al-Jubeir indicated that the King had been very impressed by
the visit of Ambassador Crocker and General Petraeus, and
al-Jubeir hinted that the Saudi government might announce
changes to its Iraq policy before the President's visit to
Riyadh in mid-May. End Summary.
Positive Signs in Iraq
¶2. (S) In all their meetings with the Saudi royals, both
Ambassador Crocker and General Petraeus conveyed the progress
in Iraq and confirmed the negative role Iran is playing in
Iraq. They characterized the recent ISF-led operations in
Basra and Baghdad as having a striking effect against the
Shia militias, most importantly turning Iraqi public opinion
away from the militias. While Prime Minister Nuri
al-Maliki's decision to take action against the militias was
described as hasty and not well-planned, Ambassador Crocker
and General Petraeus emphasized that any tactical shortfalls
were overshadowed by the greater positive effect of unifying
Iraq and demonstrating the GOI's, and most specifically
al-Maliki's, determined resolve to take on the Shia militias,
especially Jaysh al-Madhi. Concurrently, these operations
unequivocally demonstrated Iran's subversive activities in
Iraq and its broader regional ambitions. Throughout all
their discussions, Ambassador Crocker and General Petraeus
stressed the importance and urgent need for the Saudis to
join us in supporting Iraq.
The Saudi Embassy Issue
¶3. (S) King Abdullah, the Foreign Minister, and Prince
Muqrin all stated that the Saudi government would not send an
ambassador to Baghdad or open an embassy there in the near
future, citing both security and political grounds in support
of this position. The Foreign Minister stated that he had
considered dispatching an ambassador and had sent Saudi
diplomats to Baghdad to identify a site for the Saudi
embassy. However, he said. "the King simply forbade us to go
any farther." King Abdullah confirmed this account in a
separate meeting with Ambassador Crocker and General
Petraeus. The King asserted that the security situation in
Baghdad was too dangerous for him to risk sending a Saudi
ambassador there. "He would immediately become a target for
the terrorists and the militias," he said.
¶4. (S) The King also rejected the suggestion that by sending
a Saudi ambassador to Baghdad he could give essential
political support to the Iraqi government as it struggles to
resist Iranian influence and subversion. He expressed
lingering doubt on the Iraqi government's willingness to
resist Iran. He also repeated his frequently voiced doubts
about Iraqi Prime Minister al-Maliki himself by alluding to
his "Iranian connections." The Saudi monarch stated that he
does not trust al-Maliki because the Iraqi Prime Minister had
"lied" to him in the past by promising to take certain
actions and then failing to do so. The King did not say
precisely what these allegedly broken promises might have
been. He repeated his oft heard view that al-Maliki rules
Iraq on behalf of his Shiite sect instead of all Iraqis.
¶5. (S) However, in a potentially significant move, the King
did not reject the idea of dispatching a Saudi ambassador to
Baghdad completely. Instead, he said that he would consider
RIYADH 00000649 002 OF 003
doing so after the Iraqi provincial elections are held in the
autumn. The conduct of these elections would indicate
whether or not the Iraqi government is truly interested in
ruling on behalf of all Iraqis or merely in support of the
Shia, King Abdullah asserted.
Grudging Acknowledgment of Change in Iraq
¶6. (S) The Foreign Minister signaled another potential
softening in Saudi policy by saying that the Kingdom's
problem was not with al-Maliki as a person but rather with
the conduct of the Iraqi government. The King himself
admitted that the Iraqi government's performance has improved
in recent months and grudgingly accepted the point that
al-Maliki and his security forces have indeed been fighting
extremists, specifically Shia extremists in both Basra and
Baghdad and Sunni extremists and Al Qaeda in Mosul. However,
the King and the senior Princes argued that more time would
be required to judge whether the recent change in Iraqi
behavior was lasting and sincere. The King suggested that
much of the Iraqi government's improved performance is
attributable to US prodding rather than change in Iraqi
¶7. (S) The Foreign Minister also suggested that the USG
should prod Ayatollah Sistani to speak out in favor of a
unified Iraq and national reconciliation among different
Iraqi sects and groups. "You have paid a heavy price in
blood and treasure, and Sistani and his people have benefited
directly. You have every right to ask this of him," Prince
Saud al-Faisal said.
Possible Saudi Economic Assistance
¶8. (S) The King, Prince Muqrin, and the Foreign Minister all
suggested that the Saudi government might be willing to
consider the provision of economic and humanitarian
assistance to Iraq. Prince Muqrin asked Ambassador Crocker
and General Petraeus to send him a list of the kinds of
assistance that the US government would like to see the
Kingdom provide Iraq. Al-Jubeir later told the Charge' that
this assistance would be separate from the USD 1 billion in
aid that the Saudi government had promised at the Madrid
Conference but still not delivered due to security worries.
He said that the Madrid commitment consisted of $500 million
in trade credits and $500 million in project assistance with
strict conditionally, along the lines of what the World Bank
would require. Al-Jubeir added that the assistance the Saudi
government might provide via Prince Muqrin would initially be
in the range of $75-$300 million.
Possible Debt Relief
¶9. (S) The King noted that Saudi debt relief for Iraq "will
come at some point," although he did not say when. Al-Jubeir
told the Charge' that debt relief is a real possibility. He
also noted that the Saudi government might make changes to
its Iraq policy, perhaps including both assistance and debt
relief, prior to the President's visit to Riyadh.
The Need to Resist Iran
¶10. (S) The King, Foreign Minister, Prince Muqrin, and
Prince Nayif all agreed that the Kingdom needs to cooperate
with the US on resisting and rolling back Iranian influence
and subversion in Iraq. The King was particularly adamant on
this point, and it was echoed by the senior princes as well.
Al-Jubeir recalled the King's frequent exhortations to the US
to attack Iran and so put an end to its nuclear weapons
program. "He told you to cut off the head of the snake," he
recalled to the Charge', adding that working with the US to
roll back Iranian influence in Iraq is a strategic priority
for the King and his government.
¶11. (S) The Foreign Minister, on the other hand, called
instead for much more severe US and international sanctions
on Iran, including a travel ban and further restrictions on
bank lending. Prince Muqrin echoed these views, emphasizing
that some sanctions could be implemented without UN approval.
The Foreign Minister also stated that the use of military
pressure against Iran should not be ruled out.
RIYADH 00000649 003 OF 003
¶12. (S) Comment: Saudi attitudes toward Iraq, from the King
on down, remain marked by skepticism and suspicion. That
said, the Saudis have noticed recent events in Iraq and are
eager to work with the US to resist and reverse Iranian
encroachment in Iraq. The King was impressed by Ambassador
Crocker's and General Petraeus' visit, as were the Foreign
Minister, GPI Chief, and Interior Minister. Cautious as ever,
the Saudis may nevertheless be willing to consider new
measures in the areas of assistance and debt relief, although
further discussions will be required to make these ideas a
reality. End Comment.
¶13. (U) This cable was reviewed and cleared by Ambassador
Crocker and General Petraeus.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Now Iran is claiming that the Wikileak US State Department cables claiming that Arab states wanted the US to finish off Iran's nuclear capabilities are in fact CIA fabrications!
Meanwhile an Iranian physicist is assasinated and another wounded in separate attacks in Tehran.
So get your fill of conspiracies ... I'm sure there are more to come!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Conspiracy theories abound.The principal one being that the virus is an attempt by an unnamed government to subvert Iran's nuclear program which has backfired to lead other governments to get worried about their own industrial control systems - anything from power stations, electrical grids, water purification and distribution, factory automation etc etc.
I am sceptical but also surprised for a variety of reasons:
1. News of the Stuxnet virus has been around several months. Only now is the press picking up on it saying it is an attempt to subvert the timing on Iran's nuclear centrifuges.
2. It is only aimed at Siemens PLCs.
3. What the hell is Siemens doing exporting PLCs for use in Iranian nuclear centrifuges? I will admit that a bog standard PLC is hardly rocket science and could control the timing of many industrial processes. However, I thought there were export limitations on technologies that could be used in "rogue" nuclear states such as Iran and North Korea.
4. The Iranians deny that any of their nuclear powerplants have been infected by Stuxnet. So would the USA.
5. PLC software from my limited experience would seem to be very easy to hack. I have only very limited experience but in a previous job a one megawatt powerplant was controlled by simple GEFanuc PLC hard and software, the latter written in a generic form of Basic called MegaBasic.
6. Why would you use a Windows-based program to control your nuclear powerplant?
7. And leading on from 5) and 6) why hasn't PLC software been targeted before? I cannot quite believe that Stuxnet is the first given the importance of PLCs in the functioning of the modern world.
Complete technical report here.
Friday, November 26, 2010
To quote the Beeb (ok I don't have too much faith there ...) "If granted, the trademark will only apply to online sites and services used to exchange messages. It could limit the use of the word in other social networks and services, such as Apple's Facetime, lawyers said."
What about that trendy magazine "The Face"?
Should I rename this blog? My Face, Kezia's Face, The Face of My Family?
For that matter should I copyright My Face?
Monday, November 22, 2010
How is Kezia going to turn out?
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
However, his extradition from Thailand to the US proved problematic ... until this.
My friends Alex Harrowell, Kathryn Cramer, above all Douglas Farah and many others in the blogosphere played various roles in his downfall.
Except is this really his downfall? The story has not finished yet ... much much more to unfold!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Don'cha just luv it!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Thanks to BoingBoing I learn about Richard Dawkin's T-shirt ...
On the front:
"We Are All Africans"
On the back:
"The Bible says modern people are the result of incestuous relations Cain and his brothers had with their sisters.
Science says we are all descendants of Africans. I believe science".
Will someone buy me (and my kids!) one.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
"Obviously it would be better if it was an open-source project written in Python by Brazilian anarchist orphans, providing an extensive Web service API so you could hook WhatDoTheyKnow directly up to it. And a pony. But then you'd need to beat most of the organisations involved out flat with a 2x4 cluebat to get them to install it."
Monday, October 4, 2010
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- Curt Kolcun, Vice President
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Oh ... almost forgot! Look at the security guarantees!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Whom should he disappoint now?
And everything and its shape became clear in the dark, by tens and tens they ranged, and lifted their lids and looked at him; in the air and in the trees and on the earth and from under the earth, and regarded him long, and he forebode to hide his face. They seemed close ranged, and now they seemed far ranged, and they moved now near, now far, as a wave comes and goes, and they lifted their lids and regraded him, and spoke not in their many tongues, and they went a far way, and there was a little rest, and they came close, and there was none. Closing in about him nearer, and swinging out wide and from him far, and came in near and near, and as a wave, closed over him, and he drowned, and arose while he might yet go.
And whom should he disappoint?"
That is from Djuna Barnes Ryder published in 1928. Poignant and poetic.
Whom should I disappoint now?
The four of us - myself, Nanda, Jaime and, more than us all, yourself have been through five years of hell, although much of the early days I hope you cannot remember.
When you were two years old, they stuck needles into you left, right and centre multiple times! You cried and screamed and shouted.
Myself, Nanda and a nurse forcefully held you down as the doctor tried to find a vein to take a blood sample. And then being told you have leukaemia. And having to tell Nanda who broke out in sobs.
Whom should I disappoint now?
And explaining to Nanda you would both have to stay in
Whom should I disappoint now?
And for four years I only saw you for a few weeks, an absent father – I’m sorry.
Now five years later, you’re back in
Nanda has taken you from here in Capela, our home in the uplands, to a house in lowland Sao Marcal, near a swamp. From health to sickness. I really hope not.
Whom should I disappoint now?
Friday, August 6, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
So begins Alan Davidson's entry on cream in the Oxford Encyclopedia of Food (a tome that every gastronome worth their salt should possess).
However, I must take Mr Davidson up on this, as I am sure, would many others who grew up in post-war Britain. The "top of the bottle" has been an integral part of generations of childhood culture and stretches further into the realms of food marketing etc.
In the early hours of the morning, well before we had arisen, the milkman in his small electric-powered milk cart, collect the previous day's empties, read Mum's note and deposit two, three, four glass pint bottles of fresh milk with shiny silver or gold foil tops (depending on the fat content) on the doorstep.
On awaking I or my brother would collect them and vie for the "top of of the bottle" cream on our breakfast cornflakes.
Except someone would often get there before us ... the local Blue Tits!
A small brightly-coloured bird, enchanting to children, that over the decades of home milk deliveries learned to associate shiny bottle tops with a free and hearty breakfast!
I cannot recall whether deliveries to your doorstep by the local milkman from the local dairy are still, at least in some places, a part of British culture. I suspect not in this day and age of popping out for a tetrapacked litre of semi-skimmed. I also suspect that home deliveries of the weekly groceries, the daily newspaper (and the much awaited weekly Beano or Dandy) popped through the letter box in time for Dad's breakfast (or sitting on the loo for yonks as I'm getting ready for school) etc are rare in the current age.
However, during our leukaemia soujorn in Rochdale, a fish van would pass up the Rooley Moor Road once a week ... so all might not be lost.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Quoted from Culinary Chemistry, 1821 in Alan Davidson's North Atlantic Seafood.
I might also try and tell Nanda to soak kidney beans overnight!
Monday, June 7, 2010
June 1 is International Children's Day (which I think I blogged about previously). Not celebrated in the UK, this year Kezia and Jaime had the opportunity to participate in the festivities here for the first time in several years and they both went with Nanda to the party at Kezia's school, Arco Iris. Jaime's budding talent as a photographer are demonstrated above. An additional shot (ahem ... not shown) depicts Kezia's teacher Paulina's bum!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
... loosely translates as "I don't want a woman, women just bring problems".
This was the title of a popular song by a local artist, Pépé Lima, a few years back. It went on "she just wants a car, gasoline, a house ..." etc etc.
It caused quite alot of polemic at the time, widely condemned by the female half of Santomense society as misogynist, anti-feminist ... but all the same I have some sympathy as that is the way this society often functions, even though there are two sides to to the stories of the sexes.
Anyway, Kezia heard it on the radio the other day and began singing along ... except she made a few changes ... "I don't want a man, men just bring problems ..."
A budding feminist? At the age of six?
I should be proud!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I was so enchanted that I waved my arms about, conducting the orchestra on old '78s and my grandfather somehow sensed my wild gesticulations.
Much much later I read about Serge Diaghilev and the Ballet Russes. Diaghilev had commissioned the Firebird Suite and his Ballets Russes stormed Paris in 1909 as I was getting into "punk" and "goth" music, hairstyles, fashion (Vivienne Westwood) etc. in 1976.
Diaghilev was bringing "punk" to Paris and, later the rest of Europe and the Americas. The storm created by the Firebird Suite ballet, Stravinksy's Le Sacre du Printemps and Debussy's L'apres-midi d'un faune caused uproar with Nijinsky's simulated on-stage masturbation caused uproar
"His fetishistic handling of the nymphs's veil, leading to gestures suggestive of masturbation and of orgasm, upset those in the audience who were not prepared for such an alarmingly disturbing display".
Diaghilev introduced to or promoted in Europe a wide range of artists, musicians, dancers, designers etc at the beginning of the 20th century - Nijinsky, Pavlova, Lautrec, Stravinsky, Debussy, Satie, Bakst, Ravel, Chanel, Sert, Picasso, Cocteau ... the list goes on and on.
But in 1909 with the unexpected death of his Russian patron, his Russian subsidies evaporated. "The problem was money".
"To realise his dreams Diaghilev bargained, lied, broke promises, stormed, bullied, cajoled, charmed, and mesmerized. He guaranteed money he did not have, then scurried about to raise the money he had guaranteed. He told Astruc the money would come from Russia and told the Russians it would come from France.
The magician had done it all with mirrors".
In much the same way the renaissance of popular culture in the UK from the late 1970s has been financed in the same way. Goth Leeds, "Madchester's" cultural scene (the Hacienda etc) has burgeoned under the inspiration of individual entrepeneurs - bargaining, lieing, breaking promises, storming, bullying, cajoling, charming, and mesmerizing.
In much the same way a third world non-governmental organisation or independent consultant seems to have to bargain, lie, break promises, storm, bully, cajole, charm and mesmerize international organisations, international NGOs, national governments, other national NGOs, private companies, both foreign and national, individuals, both foreign and national etc etc.
It seems that half the time is spent looking for work, with a quarter doing the work and another quarter producing a report.
I wish I could be a Diaghilev, but know I cannot.
"The magician had done it all with mirrors".
Quotes taken from "Misia - The Life of Misia Sert" by Arthur Gold and Robert Fizdale 1980.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Look her up on her new blog http://luciapascualino.blogspot.com.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Here's her email to me:
Yes, your Jaime will be in it! It goes to print next week, out 1st May. I'm excited. Here's a link to the book, and the exhib (which will feature only 14 kids, not Jaime, but the films I made for Ch 4 will be shown so he'll be there somehow).
Sorry you're having a tough time... nothing is permanent, I hope good things are round the corner.
If you happen to be in the UK 6th May, come to the exhib opening at the Museum of Childhood, 6-8pm.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Those of my readers who have my email address (or send me a message) so can always keep in touch ... altho' it's funny how "being survivors" involves losing touch.
Kezia, Jaime and Nanda are fine!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
This little Pigggy went to town
This little Piggy ate roast beef
This little Piggy ate none
And this little Piggy ate none
And this little Piggy went wee wee wee ... all the way home!
Jaime reminded me of this nursery rhyme last night ... I was amazed that he remembered it after all these years.
One of Kezia's first symptoms of Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia was ambulatory (i.e. walking) difficulties.
Given my recent Internet difficulties, I haven't been able to follow my favourite blogs regularly but yesterday I noticed that Dr Crippen has been commenting on the Department of Health's criticism of GPs' failure to diagnose cancer. Jaime's advice may be of use in the diagnosis of paedatric leukaemia.
Another useful ditty may be the following ...
Like a Teddy Bear
Tickle you under there.
But, of course, NICE will have to decide whether such diagnostic tools have a place in modern medical practice.
Come to think of it Jaime's recommendations could be diagnostic tools for a whole range of complaints - will someone recommend such to NICE?
Neither I nor Jaime are medical practitioners but we would love to hear your opinions!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
The next day I spoke to the school director about this and was informed that as the school is affiliated to the Portuguese Ministry of Education, it has to follow their rules and regulations which, in this case requires them to publish in the open the results of all students.